I think you've pegged their convos about right, I really do.
And no, I don't want her back. I realize that I've been in love with the woman I WANTED HER TO BE, and not really the woman she IS, if that makes any sense. I've been in love with the "image," and have been trying, largely unsuccessfully, for most of the past 22 years to mold her into something thru my charm, my words, and my efforts.
She is who she is, and I don't think I'm in love with that person, even the pre-affair version.
More thoughts later, and MANY THANKS TO ALL for your comments and encouragement. I'm simply slammed with to-do's today.