Still stuck in Limbo Land

[MariS]

Well, I've locked yet another thread & its been a full week since I have logged on 2 the BB.

Mary, my gosh - you & I are soooo much in the EXACT same place.
Like you, I'm questioning myself about deadline date, but have determined 2 view it as a review/evaluation date & not a real deadline. Have EXACT same thought & needs.

When WAH-MLCer goes on his vacation @ the end of the month, if OW is anywhere remotely involved, that is my breaking point!!!

Yes, I too want a vacation, even for a weekend, but in the same boat w/budget.

<sigh> another day in Limbo Land........

Journaling from last week.

Had date night w/WAH-MLCer w/other couple. Was okay & we went out 2 bar afterwards while they went home. Ran into friend of OW & I could tell that WAH-MLCer was on edge. Evening went downhill from there, because this friend we ran into was also a friend of WAH-MLCer & acquantence of mine.

WAH-MLCer thought I said to "Tell XYZ hello for me" when we left, when actually said "Tell Everyone hello for me." Thinking of all the other GFs that I kinda knew but haven't seen or spoken to in a year due to the situation. He was drunk..

Very proud of myself for keeping quiet while WAH-MLCer spewed vial & threats. I thought to myself, fine drop me off, pay the sitter & if you leave (he was threatening) so be it, I am much stronger now, will miss you & so will child, but I will survive.

Weekend spent at rent property & several couples came out w/kids for the day & WAH-MLCer said he was surprised. Well duh, show a united front & that we are doing good & our friends will support us. Geez - but I kept quiet.

Now as of this morning, WAH-MLCer has admitted to me that he is broken, isn't happy, doesn't want to talk to anyone, & was looking forward to his trip.

My reply was that I would do what ever I could to help, he responded w/a he didn't want to go into this conversation w/me right now.

SO, I am letting WAH-MLCer be. Give him the rope to hang himself. GAL'ing & doing "okay."

We/I have come along way since last August, still taking it one day @ a time, with many prayers.

Sending PMA to everyone!