Sashaying thru Seperation IV

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CW called at 1020. Wanted to talk. She said that everyone is mad at her. We talked and I told her that I didn't want to know where she was and I was only mad that she was unreachable. She said that my message was that it was ok and I had it under control. She told me that she got my message at 830. Im told her that she was wrong and my message never said I had it handled.

We talked until 1115. At one point (earlly on) she told me that our M was over. We talked about this and that and she actually told me that sometimes she thinks God meant for this to happen. I asked her if she thought it could be the Devil doing this. She is confused because why would the Devil do something so good for her (getting over the eating disorder). I told her that maybe God got her over the ED and the Devil did the rest.

We talked in circles a bit, and I told her that I felt our old marriage was dead and we could come back from this and be stronger than ever. What was needed was she needed to see that we can work. I told her that an A was a symptom of the problem, not the problem.

She kept coming back to the fact that she wanted us to be friends and get along for the kids sake. Initially I told her that friends don't treat friends how she is treating me.

She cried through most of the talk. I did offer several times to come over to her place and talk in person if needed. She declined. At some points, she was almost impossible to understand.

I am not sure where this leaves me. She starts out so against us, and then backs down. She never said that she wanted to give us a chance, but she backed away.

I think some of this was precipitated by me pushing some things a little too much.