It's a dark roller coaster I know. I did some of the same venting to my wife about change or I would leave - well she beat me to the punch and now I'm in an apartment by myself. Smart move huh? Think I've reconciled myself to words no longer mean much but my actions do and it will take TIME. Patience is a hard lesson I'm trying to learn myself, that and trying to notice all the little positive nuggets amongst the crap. This can sound corny but I've asked Christ to be my marriage counselor (yeah, I know we all get faith when the going gets rough) and help guide my words and actions. I always think of that before I see her and ask Him for help. I think she knows I'm speaking from the heart in a non-emotional way and that helps. The D word hasn't been used since the first time so think it's working. Give it a try and hang in there!
Me 47 W 45 D 16 & 13 S 9 & 5 Married 20 years Sep 13 May '07 DB Start 1 Jun '07
"You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go bear fruit - fruit that will last" John 15:16
