Ok, now I'm just venting. I just feel really angry sometimes. About everything that has happened.
Have you guys heard that song, don't know who it's by, but it's something about "she's the prom queen and I'm just the girl next door?" That's how I feel now -- like I'm *just* the wife and mom of your children -- how pathetic is that. THAT should be the better thing; I should't feel like that is SECOND BEST, but that's how I feel right now.
And logically I know that I'm probably *making up* half of this stuff, as far as H is concerned, all that is BTDT, it's over, but it's just so hard now w/ him gone and all the crap that I now have to deal w/ on my own -- getting over the A's and praying that our M is truly ok, but not being able to KNOW that b/c he is so far away and not wanting to have any R discussions long distance.
Ok, tomorrow will be a better day.
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
