There are moments I look at our kids and want to scream to my wife, "Noooo! Don't do this to them!!!"
There are moments I think of the OM and my wife and I get enraged and disgusted.
There are times I lament the marriage we never had.
There are times I look at my wife and wonder, "Do I want this woman at all anymore?
There are times I am so hurt and angry by the injustice of it.
There are times I want to hear my wife say, "Hun, I'm so sorry. I know I hurt you tremendously. I don't know what I was thinking, but I was selfish and the affair was wrong. Please forgive me. I love you and want to spend the rest of my life getting you know you better and experiencing joy with you."
This is one of those days when the cup seems half-empty.
