NikkiB #16

[NikB]

Thanks Nick. All these hugs and support really help. I haven't been this afraid since the bomb, and need to get my strength back!
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So.. one more post and then I'll take a breath and give people time to reply (and myself time to think).

Can I get a little outside perspective on the conversation my H and I had? I see all kinds of things in there but I wanted to know what it looks like from the outside, especially if you've seen other people through early Piecing. Here's what's running through my brain:

- Positive that he shared this with me.

- Positive that I didn't freak out (to him, that came later today).

- Is a pretty typical "stage" in Piecing? The WAS having these doubts?

- Is this really another bomb, the way I feel like it is? Part of me thinks I'm reading too much into it, that he didn't say he wants out and in fact didn't say anything negative about me or his feelings for me. Another part thinks I'm being naive and he wants back out, but I'm blinding myself to it.

- My perception was that it was very strong of H both to leave, and to find the courage to come home. But it seems he feels the coming home was weak. No real question here, just an observation.

- Not about the convo but for those who have followed me for awhile (and, thank you again!) - have you noticed a change in me that may have contributed to this change in H? Maybe something I'm not aware of?

Thanks again.