Why do these things happen III

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I cannot even stay away from this place for 12 hours.
Wonder if I am an addict

Had a half hour talk with W this morning, bad DB'ing I know.

The good thing if there is one is she admitted she has not been there for me when all this crap came down. Also admitted that she did not put forth the effort in our M the last year or two.
I brought up some of the negatives that she has said lately, I was not a good DB'er, she did make me smile when she said do not read anything into the bad stuff she is saying, she is not sure what she wants but is feeling that she did not try and is feeling guilty about it and does not want to hurt myself or our S. She did say that the alcohol was really the only problem and "knows", she must have spies, that I have not been drinking at all. Most of the other talk was about work and our son and our 3 day trip out of town this upcoming weekend.