As much as I would like to be spending my time doing special things for W, I think I've come to the conclusion that perhaps that's not all really that productive. If that what W wants from me, then it's great, but if the heals are dug in it wouldn't matter what I do. W seems to be doing the right things, because they are right, however not really going for the full change/commitment since that would mean exactly that. So, like many here, I'm waiting for the W who is ready for full commitment. In a positive note, I do feel like I'm doing the right thing and there continues to be positive movement.

For now I am working on improving my R with my kids, improving my career, serving others and keeping my own life on track, be it GAL or hobbies. Did a sports event on Saturday that I have not done in over a year and a half, took second. Have also been trying to do more with sons, so that they have a good role model in their life. Also, if things go south, I want them to at least have positive memories of our times together. I feel that I have done a good job at this.