Believe me on this. You have the best people here right now. Listen to them and slow down.
No matter how you "feel", the truth is you will continue breathing and your heart will continue to beat. This is true.
And the God issue. Well, we can all tell you, but you have to stick your neck out a bit. See, you are still struggling to get control back and that won't happen. God is in control and he does have a plan for you. As soon as you can accept that and let go of the control, things will begin to clear.
Obviously there was much turmoil in your marriage. This will be a long journey of reviewing and assessing your roles in that turmoil. ONly than will you be able to work on the issues you need to improve on in yourself.
If you are not seing a counselor (by yourself), than you really should. It helps more than you can imagine. And read. Read everything you can on your sitch.
How are you today? I am concerned about you.
bambam
Me-BS 38 X-WS 36 Separated 11/15/2006 Filed for D 8/1/2007 Divorce Final 12/21/2007 S13, S13 (twins), D9 Married 13 Yrs Together 20 Yrs
