You know HnA - I've been thinking about your thread for a good majority of the evening (thank you for taking my mind off of my sitch for a few )
One thing I've noticed is it seems your quick to blame your W or God for your failing M. You say you've cracked your bible but if you do, you'll see that God's there.......He's everywhere but He's hard to hear when we're separated from him (sinning).....
Someone wise once told me you have to have faith, even when your life looks like it's in the crapper (I'm paraphrasing here ) but it's true. You can't just have faith when things are going your way.
This is the time to BUILD your faith.....through the trials you're enduring.
Believe me, you're not the first person here unfortunately.
You need to not only have faith in God, but yourself and your W.
You would not be here had you done everything perfectly and you know it. Your W is not 100% to blame.
We need love - we need to feel loved. Have you checked out The Five Love Languages? Do that and see if you can figure out what your W's LL is.
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
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