Hey H&A, maybe God sent you here to learn how to cope better. Don't over look the small miracles because they don't come with a host of heavenly bodies. \:\) Help will come in many ways. Sometimes god works through the hands of a skilled surgeon and sometimes he works in the advice of a fellow traveler. Just consider that this is where you need to be and relax, you didn't get here in one day and you won't go home in one either.

Peace and love

Tom