I know it needs some time. I guess since we haven't lived in the same house for so long I'm just so anxious to get up there and feel like I'm doing something. I feel like I'm drowning in quicksand and I can't get my footing. I know the best thing is not mention anything about the R while I'm there. I figure I'll go out and job hunt and check out some sights and let him take the lead for the most part. I know not to mop around and be all sad. This is just so very hard. Our 25th anniversary is next Tuesday and I don't know how to handle that one either. We always talked about renewing our vows on our 25th and here we are talking D. Not saying anything about the R will be a 180 for me. I know I have to start working on this and see how it all plays out.
