it would be nice if he would show us if he even exists.
Excuse me? Exactly what does God "owe" you?
Let me break this down and define exactly who I'm talking about since I don't "change religions" as if I'm scratching a lottery ticket and hoping to win. I am talking about Jesus Christ. God in the flesh Who stepped down off the Throne to live among man and be tempted and tried just as man is tempted and tried. THAT is Who I'm talking about when I speak and I'll tell you what He owes you and that is exactly nothing. See He has already given His all just so you can have a relationship with Him without going through a bunch of so-called "religious" hoopla. Like most of us were at one point or other though, I bet you didn't give Him a whole lot of thought before the rug got pulled out from under you did you? No. We typically don't. I didn't. Many others here will tell you the same. Nope. We prayed if someone we loved got hurt, or we needed a new job or one of our kids got sick, etc. Yeah, suddenly we sought the Almighty and all His grace and mercy but once things were okay, we didn't talk to Him anymore. Am I hitting anywhere near the mark yet?
God is a merciful God and He does NOT want your family destroyed. HOWEVER, if you think He's sitting up there with a magic wand to wave and make it all better my friend, you have got another thing coming. He wants you to come to Him and He will bless your life immensely in ways you can not begin to fathom but He's not going to do it without something from you in return.
He wants you. Your life, your family, all your problems laid at the foot of His cross. He wants you to submit to Him and trust Him. He will prove Himself worthy, I guarantee you that. Put everything in His hands, trust in Him and His Word and His promises for you. And the biggest thing He will EVER ask of you, is that you will allow the changes in, and the healing of, your family to begin with you.
You don't need a church or a priest or any of the other various men and women carrying around titles.
It's just you and Him right at this moment.
There is evidence of His existence all around you but you've got to make the decision that you want to see it.
What are you gonna do, man?
You have two options in front of you right at this very moment.
Keep going as you are and reaping all the "rewards" you've been reaping...
