Thanks so much for the support and kindness. It really does help.I know that I have had so much anger. I found a cell phone that she bought for him and when I asked him what he wanted to do with it, he said he would return it to her. I took a hammer and smashed it to bits and it got returned to her that way. Isn't that terrible? This has turned me into a raving loon. He is still gone, and he cannot transfer from the department he currently is in. He went back to work today and called me to tell me how " embarrassed" he was. I want to be kind, I want to live my faith, I want to be reasonable, but I am soooooo angry right now. I am grateful for the responses here and I am sorry that everyone has suffered so, but it helps to hear from others and know you are not alone. Thanks Lisa and Goal you are sweethearts. I am sorry about your wife and I understand the anger you feel and the hurt. It is almost overpowering. I am trying to think of things I should be doing for myself right now, but depression gets in the way. Thanks a million again. Love, Violets
