Ok first man. SLOOOOOW DOWN. You sound as desperate if not more so than I was when I first joined this board.

There are no easy one shot solutions. It takes time.

But the time right now the only thing you can do is slow down and evaluate yourself. Breathe man breathe. It's time to re-introduce yourself to you...and you might not like what you see.

H-36
W-38
Married 14yrs Together 17
2 Children (D12, S15)
9/20/05 - Seperated
4/23/07 - Dbomb dropped
4/25/07 - I Love you, not in love
"If it's not hard, it's not worth fighting for."