Need Veteran Piecer's Advice - desperately!!!

[Heartbroken]

Theo thanks for the prayer - it's exactly how I feel.

ROOT - he is just done and does not want to try and I cannot make him. I will use a lawyer to review our mediation papers - started researching this path - seems less volatile. I have my best friend looking at houses with me. H is not needed there - though he could be a good laborer and put in hardwood floors.

KMFLA - thanks for your input!

To all:

I had no intention of letting him help me find a place. I really do not WANT to stay in this home we built it together. Too many memories, over and acre wooded yard - way to much maintenance. I was looking at condos but with $229 a month in association fees I might as well get a house with some space around it for the kids.

I told him if he has to file he can but I am still not ready. My thoughts are that I want to give him his month alone without the kids or me at ALL (they are off to California for three weeks). If he still feels the same then we can start the process...though I did not clearly state this last part...I did not cry in front of him - just told him I am not done trying (but he says he is...)

I look foward to getting the peace I so desire. I have a great group of friends and they will continue to support me! Last week I had two teachers tell me what wonderful kids I have and that I am such a great mom - must have done something right in these last 16 years of marriage. Now if I can keep the kids on the right path for the next 8 years I will have done my job correctly!