Kind of wierd when it all "clicks" how simple it seems. It is from all of the struggles, anguish and soul searching which brought you this far, that you are reveling in the freedom of detachment. This is a wonderful, yet difficult place. The wonder is in your heart and mind with acceptance of "YOU". The difficulty is maintaining your feelings for stbx if you chose.
You will move forawrd at a brisk pace Nic, you are developing a glow inside. The glow will soon be enhanced to a full blown shine. The shine is your character, the true Nic, emerging from the other side of your H's MLC.
I glanced at your pics from the race festivities of you and your kids. You are no doubt proud of them, they looked like they were having a ball! And you...... spaghetti strap black dress, just below the knee, smiling ever so pretty, sitting in a race car!!!! Somebody throw cold water!!! Hurry!!!