Good morning to everyone, and I hope all who read this are seeing great improvements in their M's. I have been taking a break from here, but coming maybe once a week to see how certain ones were doing.
I guess piecing is the place to be, while my H still hasn't expressed any remorse over his EA, I feel he is trying to make an effort to show me he is being a better H.
One weird thing he is doing, though, is some, I think, inappropriate joking with me, by saying when I had some bruises on my arms, that my boyfriend probably grabbed me and put them there. I just said oooh, gross to him, and went into the other room. He has made other jokes that seemed to be laughing at our sitch, but seem to be somewhat in a nervous way, like he wants to see my reaction.I usually just give him a weak smile, and say nothing. He has only done this a few times. I just wonder what it means when they feel comfortable enough to do that.
About a week ago, he called me, and I wasn't home, and he left a message, and at the end of it, he said, I will be home after while, and umm uh, I Love You, bye. He sounded a little nervous doing it, too. I saved that message, because it is the first time in maybe a couple of years he has said ILY on a message.
Things are seeming a little more peaceful here, and he talks to me a lot more, like he hasn't in a long time. It's like he is telling me everything. He still gets irritated with me, and will say so, and one day a couple of weeks ago, he had me crying because of something mean he was saying to me. I think that is the first time in a long time he really saw the hurt he was causing me.
I am having the same issue as I have read others have had or are having with my anger starting to come out, and I have to try hard not to let it show. Some days, I have felt like just screaming at him and wanting to slap his face, and this feeling just comes out of nowhere. The other day, I felt my anger at him rising, and walked into the kitchen, and told myself to always return evil with good. That and the big old red stop sign which I really do use.
IP, in your post you said your H was in the same line of work as mine. Really? You never said so before. I would like to hear more about how you are able to handle the crazy hours and other stuff. I hope your S is letting you finally get some sleep. When we put pour S into his first bed, he was so thrilled with the new house and all that he never realized he was alone down the hall from us.
Well, that's all I can think of for now. Ain't yall glad??
