Oh Penny, I'm so sorry, I hurt so bad for you. Don't beat yourself up. I too let my H have his cake and eat it too. He was sleeping with both of us. I knew it, but I too wondered is she knew. My H told me he hasn't been happy for a long time too, that it was him not me. What a standard explanation, huh? But of course they say that then they proceed to tell you all of your faults. It so sad when we feel we let our kids down, but we are not superwomen all of the time, just 90% of the time. Our kids are so used to us being there for them, I can tell that you are wonderful mother. I bet he didn't expect his dad to come. They rely on us because they know we most often will do everything in our power to be there for them, but in this case you certainly had justification. I'm sure he was disappointed, but he will think about and know that you would have been there if you could. Hang in there, I'll say a prayer for you tonight.
You are right they all will wake up one day and see that this grass is not greener on the other side and what they have destroyed.
Hugs, Yoyo
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon