Have a little time now. But will try to respond to everyone's post tomorrow.
This weekend camping was a blast with my girls. Friday we basically got to the site and set everything up. I should also mention that I brought the puppy along at my 5D request. Saturday we where up bright and early, I made breakfast and then we where off to the waterpark/amusement park. We where there all day. Our night did not end until 10:30pm. All of us where exhausted by the end of the night. This morning we went out for donuts and then a little fishing. We got skunked(did not catch anything) but we still had a goodtime. My wife called a few times this weekend while we where away, all of which where to talk to our girls. Except for one conversation she had a 3 year old in the ER that coded and she was having a hard time with it. So she called me to tell me to keep a close eye on our girls. I assured her they were in good hands and that we would call later to say good night. Once back at the camp site I called her cell and left a VM saying that I sounded like she had a rough night and if she needed to talk or talk to the girls to just call. Once home I unpacked everything and washed my truck while 2D sledpt and 5D went swimming at a neighbors house. Tonight I went to my parents for dinner and while there I recieved and angry W phone call. She asked me NOW WHERE ARE YOU AT. I told her that I was at my parents and why the concern. She said that she just needed to know how to get ahold of her babies. Not a whole lot of logic in that comment but I let it go and handed the phone off to my girls.....
Alright enough about my day to day. This weekend I started reading the NUTS book that FIB recommended. I did not read as much as I would have liked, but, read enough to know that I have compromised who I am for sometime in my M. I always made my decisions based off of how they would effect my W. Basically I was afraid of her and did not even know it. I plan on writing out what my NUTS are so I can start living by them.
FIB... For whatever reason your tag line strength and honor was on my mind this weekend. What is strength? What is honor? Tomorrow I will try to post my thoughts around those two questions and how I see them fitting into my life.
We are still going to counseling tomorrow and hopefully we can have break through of sorts while there. I am not looking for to big of a drastic change but maybe a commitment to another session.
