Well Chicki it must be in the air.....OW has flown back to see my H and he has talked all the time. He gave her one of our extra phones to call him. I called him and said I can't be the extra person in our marriage anymore. It has gone on too long. He said she is just a product of our problems. I told hime the same product or not he has made the choice. We still have to have some contact because of the business but I am calling in the cards and he has made his choice. The problem is finanicially neither one of us can get out. He said today that he loves me and respected me and admired me but couldn't live with me. That he has big problems and he has to figure them out. and doesn't want to be married and I haven't had him in a long time. I told him I can't believe I have been such a flippin fool ( nice lang) for so long and have been so loyal and supported him. He said that it is all him and he has destroyed me. He doesn't even know who he is and hasn't for years. He said he was messed up when we got married and can't believe I stayed married to him. What a fool I am..... I guess I finally after years of him being not a nice husband I have set my foot down. I told him you will realize some day that you have what every man wants a strong family and 2 great boys that everyone brags about. Even though I am prejudice they are kind, respectful, and goodlooking boys. They will help any one and have good morals but I have gave them the right act alot since it runs in this family. I try to have them go to church one of them is better than the other.
I told him that even though we had trouble the one he picked is everything he hated in me except she is tall and wild a terrible mother has 4 kids and they all live with their dad. I said she might be a better woman but not a better person....
I told him I am not stupid that I knew she flew back and saw him last week end. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure that out. I even said I know you are sleeping with her does she know you were sleeping with me. I also told him that does she know about your old girlfriend and your other friend in NM that calls all the time? I don't believe she wil put up with the stuff I did but I was the fool with 25years under my belt. Can you tell I am definitely venting alot tonight. When you finally realize its been over a long time its hard. Chicki I to have cried all day. I told him he has been in a MLC for a long time . He said he was messed up way before that. Its the pits to be in this situation and doing all the work in our business. Well I am just numb and drained and I was supposed to drive 9 hrs to watch my oldest son compete but I couldn't do it. I called and told him I was just to tired that I had put in 2 16 hr days and just couldn't drive by myself that far. I think he is disappointed but I couldn't have made it today. I feel bad.
So welcome to life what curves it throws us.......
