Sorry you've been put in such a predicament lately.
I also wonder if H did something recently, that is causing strain on him and putting it on you. Or maybe it had something to do with your dad. I don't see why you telling him about the dance class was bad. If he normally stays out longer, then are you really to tell him your every move and at an early enough time?
I'm thinking there is more here. Maybe it is a little setback for him, just with his feelings on his own mortality. I mean, during the main part of your sitch, H seemed very depressed.. so I always wondered about it being MLC or just plain depression... and I think probably for most people, they may still have times where those thoughts come back and they can end up taking it out on the ones they love.
Maybe it is guilt? I don't know. What you should continue doing is focusing on you and not him, and not letting his craziness turn you crazy. There's going to be lots of times where H's actions make you upset or whatever, and we are going to do it to them as well, but we have to remember not to let their actions control our happiness.
I'm sorry you had a anxiety attack. Now I think we know why they were happening. Your body is just taking over for the stress it is reacting to in regards to your struggles with H. Really try to keep that confidence up and take care of yourself.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
