That sounds like an amiable talk. We can talk simply, but not much about current situations. H will mention our ability to always talk - and when I brought up to him my regret if we D of not having anyone to talk to who knew my sister and had lived through the events we had, he said he would always be there. I can't go there right now, though. I'm not sure I can be just his friend - not yet. I don't want to be his adversary, but the image of us being casual friends just doesn't seem real or possible for a long while. BUT, I might be wrong - I'll cross that bridge when we get there.
Yesterday went ok. The finance talk was without contention and I managed not to venture into R talk at all. We discussed briefly our feelings about S1's R with GF, and what we each expected in terms of how much supervision they need; luckily we were in agreement on that one. I ended up going off to take the dogs for their 2xyr grooming - it took 5 HOURS! - and didn't talk to H until last night when we confirmed times for S2's B-day get together today.
Now that will be a bit awkward. S2 wants us to have a dinner and cake, and after he and I talked a bit, we decided just to have me make my pasta sauce, etc. I know you and DH eat together alot, but this will be pretty much a first since my H moved out. At least yesterday H mentioned that he will be edgy today b/c of a new working situation on Monday; when I thanked him for telling me so I wouldn't take it personally, he reconfirmed that it wouldn't be me. Still, I'm a bit anxious about today. I don't want it to go poorly b/c it's S2's day! I will do a fair amount of meditating and mental prep b/f H comes over!!!
The weather has been gorgeous the past couple days - mid 80s and sunny. This still threatens to be a wet summer, though, and that never bodes well for my mental state. But what am I worried about? My mental state can't get much worse, right???
I'll let you know what happens today. I hope things are good for you at that end.
(Isn't this the most surreal situation you ever have found yourself in? I never thought I'd be thinking or considering any of what I've been...)
