You know, making the salary I mentioned to you up there, does make my self esteem go up and THAT bugs me...isn't that weird? I mean, it's as if I'm letting h's weirdo views of money and our worth as people, affect ME and MY views. kwim?
Well, I don't know how much of that you can blame on H. You're living in a society where how much you make figures into your status as a human being somehow. It's not right, per se, but your H doesn't own that trip.
I sure know how you feel though. Making so little is a blow to my self-esteem. I'm highly educated, I have all kinds of worldly, life experience, I'm not stupid, and darn creative...but I make dirt and I depend of my H's generousity to keep S and I living the lifestyle we have become accustomed to. I should be making twice as much, atleast. And if I was, I know it would be a significant stroke to my self-esteem.
