Where's the focus on the future? Rehashing the past over and over isn't helpful. It's water under the bridge. Yes it's good to know what happened and why but that's it. You move forward in life and time not backwards.
Sounds like it's time to consider a goal update. As for the decision by the end of June, that's crazy because y'all haven't a clue where you want to go.
Now a question for you is do you know what you each want in life, in a relationship, in a marriage?
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa