I've had a blah day. I've been helping DD19 move into her new apartment. H came and helped us. I rode with H to take furniture and DD rode with her friend. I had to get H to take me back to the house since I didn't have my car. Before we went to the house I had to stop at the grocery store. I was weak and asked him if he would like to come over tonight and I would cook for him.. He said I don't know you might attack me. I started laughing and said would that be so bad? By then we were at the grocery store and I got out so I wouldn't have to say anything else. On the way home I said if you want to come over for dinner you need to let me know what you would like. He said I don't know. I just dropped it.
Why is it that they can make us feel so small? I swear sometimes it's like he thinks he is so much better than me. Does anyone else ever feel like that? Forgive me for ranting and feeling sorry for myself, it's just one of those days. It probably doesn't help that I haven't taken my Lexapro in a couple of days. I just don't know where this is going. He still hasn't filed for D and I did not bring this up. I was able to hold my feelings in in front of him. I'm going to pull myself together and go over and help my daughter with her apartment.
Does anyone else ever feel like this? It feels so hopeless. It's just that lately I haven't seen any progress.
Me 44 H 43 M 20 yrs together 24 2 DD 16 & 19 H moved out Oct. 06 Found out about OW (his secretary) Jan. 07
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon
