I suppose I have found, through my own trials and tribulations of LD/HD stuff... that I am always in charge of my own sexual desire. In the midst of the initial chemical rush of new dating, it comes very easily (every pun intended). When the chemical rush wears off... well.
I'm really glad that you feel like you are in charge of your sexual desire. Good on you for making the effort. I wish I were in charge of mine - lol. I think my drive must work differently than most women. I'm re-discovering my LD side lately. I think I'm sort of like a slot machine with the sex chemicals. 100 guys will put in a quarter and come up lemons because my attraction is totally negative (sad to admit the main reason being "boring") but then one will hit the jackpot and once you hit the jackpot once with me it's a sure thing from then on unless I make a rational decision not to have sex with you because my body will always say "yes" or at least "sure, why not?". I've never had the feeling of the chemicals wearing off (Even my "just sex" relationships were pretty steady-state. I never lost my purely physical attraction, I just didn't gain emotional attachment.) For me it's more like the groove gets deeper the more the record is played. I mean I pretty much had to use aversion therapy on myself in order to break my attraction to my 2bx.
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
