My goal this weekend is to stay on track with regard to improving myself and not being angry at W. Rather it is my desire to be a good friend to her. I want to do some of my GAL things and get away from her for at least a few hours this weekend.
I don't know why but my eyes noticed a light fixture over the kitchen table, which I realized came from OM #1 (before I knew he was an OM) I thought today about taking it down and replacing it with something else. I think that I will. Maybe sometime next week. It's a bad reminder for me and I don't want it in our house.
I know I am kind of in a bad place. W's little anger flash the other day, reminded me of things which are wrong in our relationship. I don't want to be 10 years down the road coping with this. W unfortunately has a rather nasty streak. I am somewhat detached so it does not cut through to the heart, as it has in the past, but wow, what a wake up call. Why did I put up with this for so many years?
All the more reason to think things through carefully. I read some articles yesterday on falling out of love? Is that bad, I wonder? Does it indicate what I am doing or just curiosity?
