Character, Faith, and Patience II

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789, I think I see where you're going with your post, and I agree to a certain extent. However, think about this - why do you HAVE to have someone to go do things with? Think about it for a while...

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You might be right here, I might not need someone to do things with, probably out of nothing but habit for 20 years, I need to learn that I can do things by myself, gonna be tough to start.

We do it because humans a social animals, but haven't we become TOO dependent on other people? Isn't that kind of why we are where we are? I know I am, I got co-dependent and couldn't leave my W alone for a day or two to gather her thoughts.

I have been dependent on alot of people for my hapiness, about the only time I was doing anything by myself it was with a beer bottle.

Now, we feel so badly about our situations, because we feel (to differing degrees) that we can't get along without our W's.

I've come to realize I don't NEED my W to be happy and to do things. I still WANT her with me because I value her as a person, and I value my family. THAT is why I'll be sticking around for however long it takes. People like Amy (and MANY others) who have been at this for years show us it's possible and that positive things can happen, but it is HARD! WE have to be ready to fight.

I am in it for the long haul, ready to fight any evil thoughts that come to my head. I need to look for more positives. There is this nagging part of my brain I just need to remove about doubts I have. I know it is going to be hard, that is one of the main reasons I come hear, learning that I am truly not alone in this and many people have been here before and will in the future. Seeing the sucess stories really help.

Here's a quote I found today that I think is very appropriate:

To LIVE is the rarest thing in the world...

Most people exist, that is all.

- Oscar Wilde

So, are we going to live, or are we going to exist? We live as individuals, we determine our own fate within our own belief system. If we show our W's that we're living and not just existing, that is attractive! That is something they'll want to be a part of.

This is where I need to start living and stop just existing. I need to start determing what I want and what I want to do, instead of "yeah bad" waiting for the phone to ring.

Me, I'm available to my W if she wants to save our family. Me, I'm living, I'm not letting another day pass me by without some sort of uplifting experience - whether is be spiritual, physical, mental, emotional, whatever. And I'm going to get my journal going full steam again to remember all the things that I do to live.

I hear you. I am also availble to her, sometimes maybe to much at the moment. I am going out to buy the 5 languages of love and see if I am missing some hints from her.

We can do it guys, we can do it - we just have to LIVE!

[color:#6666CC] We can, and we all will.

I hope I didn't butcher this copy and paste stuff