D - What an evening! I think Fridays are the curse of the separated!
I'm doing ok this morning, although I'm trying to be very aware of myself since I know H&me are going to talk finances today.
I wondered from what you wrote: are you seeing an IC? Is that possible, or at least a good clergyperson? Even though they don't have the answers to the questions you and I would like to have, I know I'm able to weather the storms a bit easier b/c my IC is helping me focus on me. I'm able to find support for taking my focus off H, giving myself the attention I need to grow strong and independent. My IC, even though she herself is divorced, is also supportive of my wanting to wait in this separation instead of working towards a divorce - at least, she doesn't push me towards "acceptance" of a "given".
Just a thought. I too have only recently found myself able to sleep in; up until a couple weeks ago, I was always doing what you describe of waking up really early and then going back to bed a few hours later for an hour or so more. It's that wonderful anxious mind!
It's sunny and lovely weather here today; how about there? A
