Hi ROOT- I'm so looking forward being in a place of peace, where it sounds like you are at. I am trying to get there but it is a pretty long and rocky road and I am sure I am no where near my destination. Hopefully you don't think I am trying to Hijack your thread, I just thought you might like to know how your suggestions have helped out so far.
This has been a very stressful week for me because I signed purchase contracts for my new house...a house all on my own!...yikes. I am thinking that this stress might have had a something to do with the events earlier in the week...hmmm.
Okay, so here is the Reader's Digest version...So today I did go into my H's office today to drop off checks and I ask him to look at the contracts for the house. I was lookin' good...I wasn't as strong as I would have liked but I will get there. While there, I told my H that I don't want him to file and he said fine (he did say he was too busy to do the paperwork). He commented on our last conversation where he thought I got crazy because I told him I was done and to go ahead a file...and I wanted it done NOW. I admit I lost it...I am human and this situation does make me crazy. Anyway, today I suggested we work on our friendship and he agreed. Before I left, I asked for a hug and he obliged...not the greatest hug, but it helped. I also asked if he would call me sometime just to talk. He said that would be nice.
So, I think I have started the momentum in the right direction. Next time I will be much more aloof. I will keep re-reading your posts and the put the plan into action. I have no where to go but up because I have hit rock bottom with the emotional stuff.
Thanks again for all of your input. Your story and suggestions are helping me feel stronger.
