Character, Faith, and Patience II

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I have re-read some of your posts, and it gets me thinking again. I realize I am going to go for the long haul, but what is the long haul. I have read some that have gone on for a year or more, I give those people all the kudos in the world for being able to do it.
But that gets me to wondering how long I can do it, I know I can do it for a some time. Not sure though I could go a year without any hint one way or the other.
I do not mind being seperated, for now I think it is good for both of us. I know I get some info, not much but some from my W, and you are not, but all in all it is about the same when it comes to info. If I knew she was truly thinking, which she probably is, and at some time say she wants to work on it, great, I could last a year or more while doing that. It is sitting in the dark that I worry if I can do.
I am slowly GAL, no problem with that, but in all reality I am not sure how people can do that completely while being in the dark and truly live. I do want to move on and forward, with or without her I know I will be okay and be happy. While GAL, I would think, and I am probably wrong, I would want someone to be able to call, to get a hug when wanted, to take to the movies and dinner. I guess that is were I am scared, that one day I will make a mistake and do something like that, and then with my luck, my W would finally make that phone call or in person and says she wants to try the next day.

I think I started to ramble, but you get the gist I hope.