Not much new to report. Kind of in limbo at the moment.
The most difficult challenge for me right now is not asking about the state of the R.
Part of me wants to know, are we separating or what?
The other side of me doesn't really care. I'm going to be okay either way. If I really believe that, then why do I need to know what the state of our R is, if she is still planning her exit or anything else.
Yes, it will affect me but not in a life changing way it would have a few months ago. I really believe my response, (and the one I have mentally rehearsed/visualized), would be to look around and say, "Okay, this phase of my life is done, what's next?"
Honestly looking at whatever comes next with excitement, and a bit of a rush. The opportunity to take on new territory and the challenges that come with moving into a new place, physically, mentally and spiritually.
If I stay or if I go, I'm looking forward to the continued reconstruction of Tyler.
