My heart has been completely torn apart

[I_Surrender]

So another day another step backwards.

I was being a little klutzy yesterday, knocking a few glasses accidentally down off the kitchen counter (nothing broke fortunately.) I was going to playfully steal a last morsel from W dinner plate and accidentally knocked over my empty glass. She says "F..k (my name) " So I am given a quick flash reminder of her anger and leave the dinner table.

DD came back from her vacation late last night. When she came home from work (just after dinner) she had a gift for me, nothing for W, still not speaking to W. I felt sad when I realized this.

It sparked anger in W. I could not talk to her, so I went away for 1 1/2 hrs to work on a project. I bought her a little stuffed animal and a candy bar on the way home. I hoped it would cheer her up.
Nope.

I won't get into the details but I talked to her late at night. She is angry at me, and angry at DD. No consoling her.

This morning she is still angry. W did not want to hug and kiss goodbye, but I gave her a forced hug anyway.

I am sad for us. W does not realize what her anger means to me.