I am not really going dark, more like a dark shade of gray
The part I am going to go dark on is the R. If he calls and starts to discuss things, and they are obvoiusly going bad, I will just politely tell him that the conversation is over before it blows up into world war 3
Normally, we talk, he pushes, I remain patient, he pushes more, I get a little aggrovated, he pushes more and gets really hostile and before I know it I am getting defensive and the conversation is now an argument.
I have to stop these conversations from going down these paths when I start feeling aggrovated.
I am trying to get myself straight first. I hopefully will meet a new C this weekend (looks like some scheduling issues have come up). He is a cognitive-behavoiural theripist who focuses on strategies and solutions. We will see what happens.
I have to start to GAL. I am starting to feel really lonely and depressed recently. For the past 18 months I have pretty much been dedicated to my M without much freedom to do things for me. Trying to get out of that cycle is tough.
