Being Me, sorry you're in one of those down loops on the rollercoaster. The nice thing about feelings is that they come and then they go! But, it is certainly difficult to feel you are being acted upon rather than doing the acting! Is there anything you can do to feel more in control of these situations? Even just a little thing. Also just wondering if you were able to pick up the book I mentioned. I'm interested in your thoughts on it if you have. Hang in there, it's a new day!!!