I have been doing 180's. The horse thing is a perfect example. I got out of horses almost 20yrs ago and swore I'd never look back. But here I am paying for lessons for her and D because it's HER dream.
I used to be a hermit. I did very few of the "little" things such as going out for ice cream, etc. I never wanted to because I was so depressed.
I guess it just hurts more because of the bday thing. I have been looking fwd to it for over a week and now because or real life crap it can't happen. Then for her to celebrate with him the next day for his is just a kick in the groin.
Since my family is mad at me for trying to fix my relationship with her. I'll be lucky if I get a friggin' ecard for my bday.
Really debating just staying in bed all day.
H-36 W-38 Married 14yrs Together 17 2 Children (D12, S15) 9/20/05 - Seperated 4/23/07 - Dbomb dropped 4/25/07 - I Love you, not in love "If it's not hard, it's not worth fighting for."
