Thanks for the hugs and prayers I need them! It has been a little better today, although he is still not home ( not by his choice). I talked to someone today who told me to not a llow myself to descend into his madness. He did this to himself and I am trying to take the advice that I have received here to try to take care of myself. I just don't know what to do. I don't work outside the home so I am here just thinking and I don't know if that is a good thing. She called the house 5 times in a row this morning. I told her she was pathetic and hung up on her. It wasn't a nice thing to say but I have a lot of anger inside. I guess she can't get a hold of him so she keeps calling here. Now where do I go from here? I never got a chance to read the books available here and maybe that would be a good place to start. I found this site by grace I think! I really had never heard of divorce busters before I found this on the internet. Is the effort to save a marriage worth all the pain, that is what I am wondering right now. I think I would be in pretty good shape financially for awhile but I haven't worked in 15 years and don't know where to begin with that. I don't feel mentally or physically able to go out right now. I have been battling a case of bronchitis and I think that just adds to the depression right now. I think I am rambling here but I really appreciate knowing someone out there is listening. Thanks again for the prayers and hugs
