Seems like if you want the option of being sure you have a career and the independence to "take care of yourself" then the job in Alaska should be a safe stepping stone that will help you cover your bases in any event. I've heard mention of alimony being based on multiple years of income so maybe working again verses staying at home, I'm not sure and really don't wanna know
With your education and determination you should be able to talk yourself out of the "fear of being on the streets" part, if not I'll keep trying to convince you. heh! Good to hear you found a place to start out living in Alaska, sounds like a much better place than your last Alaskian "adventure." I used to go hunting and fishing with my dad, haven't been in 25 yrs, but I have a few hunting tools around, should I bring them?
I'm doing ok, wrote my wife a letter recently trying to get more communication going and trying to not lay on any guilt or pain, just trying to move forward and see if she is alone for the ride or staying behind at the station. She arrived this morning for another 5 day visit, seems like even if we make any progress when she is here she is back to square one (or worse) the next time she shows up. By the time she left 10 days ago we'd kissed a few times, held hands alot on the last day she was here and even ML (tho' I'm sure it was just sex to her, no emotional involvement). She shows up this morning and no hug hello, I attempt to hug her and she gets all weird with "what do you want!!!" So whatever, supposed to go to MC tomorrow, she bailed the last time she was here because she is "done with therapists." Plus she had her boob job done 3 days before she came to visit last time and didn't bother to even tell me she was going into surgery, that she'd had it done, I sat there watching and looking at her for 4 days waiting for her to maybe mention it to me and finally told her how much it was a slap in the face and hurt that she didn't even mention that she'd had the surgery. Anyhow when you have lots of time to pass there is plenty to read on my thread.
