Just trying to get things out of my head. Current circumstances starting to take their toll on me and the boys. Boys have been w/ me for the last couple of days. S8 had a ball game last night, I coach his team. The boys and I headed to the ballpark just like we always would. W shows up just before game time. She hasn't seen her boys in 2 days, but she's more interested in catching up w/ the other mom's. Occasionally W would play w/ S3. S8, other than saying "hi" didn't acknowledge her too much. But things are really tearing him up. S8 had a couple of things go wrong during the game. He's normally the most reliable hitter on the team. He struck out twice and popped-up once. Normally this wouldn't be an issue. Each time he would s/o he'd lose it on the way back into the dugout. After the game he & I had to sit off to the side for about 20 mins. for him to settle down. As the boys and I are leaving the ball park W is walking out to her van to leave. S3 sees this and starts screaming for Mommy, balling and freaking out. Took me 15 mins to calm him down. What the boys are going through is killing me. After I got S3 calmed down were driving home and S8 can tell I'm upset & sad and he telling me "It'll be ok". There's nothing I can do but try to comfort them.
S8 has been asking me about some of the things W has told them. He keeps saying she is lying to them. I keep trying to tell him she's not lying, he may just not be understanding what she is meaning. He knows better and it hurts to keep telling him he's wrong about something, but I don't want him thinking his M is a lier. I offered to have the kids stay w/ her tonight thru Sunday am. Wife tells me she's got things going on; happy-hours, comm. volunteer work. Maybe she can take them next weekend.
My L finally called her L. We've had enough of W saying she's going to take the kids when ever she wants. My L also recommending mediation for a temporary custody settlement until things are finalized. I here the sucking sound out of my bank account. Turns out W has been telling her L that she fears for her safety. W's L brings this up in the tele-con. Somehow I guess W forgot that she's the one that's been physically abusive and attacked me on several occasions; she's the one that's been suicidal and has cut herself before.
