Just returned from Alaska. Got a job offer that sounds less overwhelming than before, and well paying, with a 6 month proviso to re-assess at that time (my suggestion, as I don't want to feel "sentenced" to stay there all winter, etc.). This fall we'll have 2 kids in private colleges for one year (a senior and freshman) and those tuition bills with housing, will top 100k, I kid you not. So, I have to admit, it'll be nice to pay that without H wincing. Also, two conflicting aspects of prof risks for me. One is, If I can do this job after staying at home for several years, it'd be a much better than average re-entry into the work world so if things between h and I go bust, I won't be so disadvantaged. OTOH, by NOT working and staying here, I'd get "alimony" (to me, it's restitution) until if and when I remarry and the amount would be much higher. The cynical side of me says I'm risking way too much in that regard. The other part of me, the part that likes the self sufficiency (but still feels fearful, which is natural when you've been at home only working part time, for so long---kind of my own "bag lady syndrome" wherein I, like many women, fear being on the streets if divorced...not all rational, but still the fear is there--and yes, I think your wife has it too).
We rented a house, small, but in a good area with bikes and basketball hoops around--great signs for the d9. And if we LOVE it there, we'll get a bigger place with a real Alaskan size lot. The rental does have a view of the Chugach mountains and despite the cold winters I'm expecting, the area is beautiful and more like what people imagine when they think of Alaska. We had lived in Fairbanks before and though the summers there are dry and sunny, the "city" of Fairbanks is an armpit of Alaska. A few squat buildings, a muddy river and the mountains are too far to enjoy or even see on a cloudy day. The Anchorage area where we'll be, is very scenic.
I left a note for H, expressing more of my fears and I am sure he tires of hearing it all . Like he wants to start over and I swear JDK, I do too, I THINK! But I just wish he could tell me to my face, "THIS WON'T EVER HAPPEN AGAIN".. Gotta go take the kids to school now.
How are YOU doing? Hey, do you like to fish/hunt? I literally saw 5 moose walking around. Road hazards, fyi. J-
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
