Well, I am the kind of person who tries to keep everything on an even keel. I have lost it today and I don't know how to get control. I just booted him out again. The counselor he went to specilizes in veterans issues and my husband came home feeling pretty good about seeing him. He had a pamphlet on post traumatic stress and I wonder where my treatment for post traumatic stress is going to come from. I made an appointment through my dr.s office and cannot get in until next week to a C. He (husband) is messed up bad. I feel for him as a human being but I can't stand to look at him right now. He is taking a week off of work and trying to transfer from the dept. he is in. He asked my son to lie for him and he tried but when I questioned him he broke down. He knew all along what was going on with his dad and he felt quilty. I don't blame him. I blame his dad. I don't know what I want. I knew for months of course but when he finally confirmed it everything seemed so much more real. The problem is I don't know what to do with me. I really do not know where to start. Thanks for the hugs and help
