I lost it this morning and called my H. I told him either he needed to work on our M or I am done. He can't tell me he wants to work on things so I have had it. We talked for about and hour and a half and I cried and begged him to try and he just says he can't...he says he doesn't have it in him. At moments, it seems like he is torn but he just can't commit to working on our M. Maybe he thinks he tried when he said he wanted to take baby steps, but that went nowhere fast. My H is an attorney so, I told him to file the paperwork. CL, I know you say that D decisions should come from a position of strength and at least at the moment, I feel like I am sort of there. I am not telling him that we should start the D for his reaction or out of my frustration. I believe I am saying it because I deserve to be treated better than this. This is killing me and at least I will start to feel better knowing the path my life is on. I know people keep telling me it has only been 3 months and that I need to detach, give it time, GAL, etc. Three months has felt like 3 years...I feel like I have aged a lot more than that. Maybe I shouldn't give up yet but my options are limited if I want my self-respect.
So, now where do I go and what do I do? I am at lousy DBing.
