SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP, it is 3am in the morning, after 21 months of dbing and thinking there was no OW, I just found out there have been 4 over the past 10 years and he "loved" 2 of them. We looked like the perfect couple, the perfect family, I really thought we were. I always felt something was wrong and could never put my finger on it, and when I did, he denied, denied, denied, I believed, beleived , beleived. What I didn't know is waht a masterful, skillful liar he had become, and yet my insticts always tried to tell me different. He met them all at work, he initiated all of them, something I could not even picture him being caplable of. He passed himself off as the perfect father & husband. OMG the pain is so intense, so deep, the betrayl has been there so long. And what appeared to be a recent MLC was his most recent affair, which turned him into the meanest, coldest bastard you could imagine, YET I HELD ON I FEEL RAPED,USED, 10 YEARS OF MY LIFE CHOICES TAKEN AWAY, I CANT TELL YOU HOW MUCH I LOVED HIM AND SUPPORTED HIM, AND WORSE OF ALL, THOUGHT ABOUT HIM CONSTANTLY WAITING FOR HIM TO SNAP OUT OF WHATEVER I THOUGHT WAS WRONG WITH HIM, I have a counselor but this betrayal goes so deep in the heart I can't see getting thru this. Please sent this post to anyone that can help, my email is Amazontrail2000@aol.com I have 2 great kids who have been deeply affected by their Dads behavior, and yet he hasn't even dropped the bomb on them that he is leaving, I worried about that night & day which is why I DB'd so hard. I feel like I have a life sentence behind me & in front of me. He took my life away.
