I can see that you were having a bad day, and it is totally understandable, having a H deployed in itself must be terribly hard.

Hugs hon, the bad days will come, but fight your fears and give the bad memories less and less time to dwell in your mind.

Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2

30something
2kids
survivor of S, MLC, A, D
I have peace in my heart, at last.