Sol - You may need to take a break from the boards. You need to also remember that your D needs her father so don't do anything rash. Suicide is NOT the answer. You have been fighting this battle for a long time. You know in your heart what you need to do. Listen to Tom, call a L and see what they advise. You don't want to be involved in this.
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...