Why do these things happen...for the better I hope

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Well, today seemed to be just another day were I was ready to give up on anything and everything. Now it is closing in on midnight and I am not sure why, this actually seems to be one of my best days mentally.
I went to an AA meeting for the first time since I quit drinking, actually not sure if that helped or not, but it got me out of the house.
While driving home I stopped by a church, I have never been in a church except for weddings or funerals. I pulled up and walked to the doors and it was open, didn't see anyone around. I walked in and milled around for a bit, then sat down on one of the aisles and just sat, looked around at the windows while lost in thought. I started skipping thru a bible that was on the bench. I don't think I had ever opened one in my life.
Now while sitting and going thru the bible, a guy, found out he was a priest after I jumped, came up behind me and put a hand on my shoulder and said you look like you could use a friend, may I sit with you. We ended up talking for almost 3 hours. It was one of the best talks I have ever had with anyone in my life. Well he knows my entire life history now. He was very understanding, he didn't push religion or god, just talked like a regular everyday person. When it was all done, I made him one promise, and it is a promise I will keep. He asked me to come sunday for services, and to come a half hour early to meet with him again, he only made me promise for one time and then it was up to me if I ever showed up again. My son and I will show up, I owe it to him for spending his afternoon with me and my problems.
Tonight is now one of my most mentally relaxed states I can remember, I still do not see my self as a church type person, but who knows.
No matter what, today is the day I am changing, I am going to lose the bad attitude, I am going to lose all the negative feelings that I have been having daily, I am going to start controling my emotions so I am not going up so high and down so low. Today is the day I am going to start living, not matter how the M ends up. Don't get me wrong, I would do anything to have my family back, but I will no longer allow that to control who or what I am. I have been letting it control me, but no more.

Anyone who I have offended the last couple days, I am truly sorry. Can I claim that I am a male, and still married ???

Everyone have a wonderfull night, and an even better wednesday.