I guess my H didn't want to talk to me after all. Funny, he is the one who said he wanted to talk to me tonight. I have been trying hard to detach and have been doing a pretty good job of it until I talk to him. This sucks big time. I can't stand it when people tell me they are going to do something and then flake. In this situation, it is a thousand times worse!!! This is so NOT the man I used to know. I'm sure he will have some excuse if I ask. I don't know if I can hold on anymore. The way he has been treating me is getting worse and worse. I don't deserve this. I know he is screwed up right now and I shouldn't take this personally, but it is personal. I know I have to act like I didn't even notice that he didn't call but why? I just feel like it is time that I start to be realistic...I don't think he is coming back. PLEASE, can anyone give me a reason to hang on to this?
I know I sound like a big whiner over something pretty insignificant. I know that there are lots of people out there (especially on these BB)who put up with a lot worse and still hold on. I don't know how they do it.
What is the next phase after "settling the muddy waters" phase? For me, I think it might be the "take a hike" phase.
