I went by my H's office today to pick up the bookwork. I had hoped he wasn't going to be there, but he was. I wasn't going to talk to him, but I did. He apparently has been talking to people to find out what is going on with me and getting bad info. How high school!!! I asked why he can't just talk to me...he really didn't say anything. Anyway, he talked about just ending everything just to get things resolved. I told him that unless he could see spending the rest of his life alone then he owes our marriage another chance. He isn't sure he wants to try now because of the "drama" at the BBQ weekend before last and he claims I am still not listening to him (because he said he wanted to leave the BBQ and I tried to get him to stay!). It is just an excuse.
I keep having to tell myself that there is nothing that I can say or do to get my H to see things clearly but regardless of how much I tell myself do that, I still find myself trying to convince him to work on our M. I am doing it less and less but I am still doing it.
My H told me today that he thinks it is "weird" that I have decided to purchase this house. He says that and then thinks about it and says well I guess you have to do what you have to do. I told him that nothing has changed for him in 3 months and I don't see it changing anytime soon.
He says he wants to call me tonight to talk. As always, I am not sure how to handle it. I hate this. Why can't he see what he is doing?
